I'm reading a book called One Heartbeat Away - your journey into eternity-. It's a fantastic book. Written about the idea and concept of GOD and looking at eviedence to prove or disprove His existence. Though I've just started the book makes so many excellent points...
The guy starts out by saying that the choices we make every SECOND are so important because our heart beats 100,000 times a day...but for each beat there is NO promise that one will follow and each one could be the last. So when faced with you belief and religion you need to know what you believe and what you don't and you need to make sure that belief is the right belief. It really is a scary thought without GOD and Heaven. What do you believe?
I know in my mind I’m asking how you can not believe in GOD. I know that some people would look at me and say how can you believe in GOD? I have an answer it's real and true to me and I wouldn't have to hesitate and try to come up with an answer that I would stumble all over. What about you. And I hate the "Life is just not that easy" excuse. I didn't have and easy life. My dad left when I was 2, I was abused and raped as a child, I suffered from depression, and I've lost so many of the best friends in life. So that excuse isn’t going to cut it.
When it comes down to it what do you have to lose? How wrong could the idea of GOD and Heaven be? It’s HOPE. Hope in something better than nothing. So what if we’re wrong so what if you think there is nothing after this. I’d like to believe you’re wrong. I’d like to believe there is a whole new better life for me. A life without suffering. Can you honestly say my belief is BAD? I don’t see the harm. Even if you call it false hope if I die I’d never know. So I’d like to spend my life living for everything instead of living for nothing.
All things point to His existence. Just look at the world around you. The sunset so beautifully painted up in the sky; it had to have had a painter. The people had to have a creator, a molder if you will. The perfect conditions for us to even exist; don’t you think that required a highly knowledgeable designer? It wasn’t just by random chance that we’re here. We’re not an “accident” no magic was required. Just love and patience and who is a better example of love and patience other than our LORD and Savior? It just far too complicated of a world to have come together by chance.

Thanksgiving Already!

Its November. Thanksgiving day to be exact. Its crazy. Time has just flown by. It seems its true the older you get the faster time seems to go by. I'm only 20!!! But the time I'm 35 I'll be getting whiplash from how quickly time is flying by.

It's less than a month until Christmas! (:

You are EXACTLY my brand of heroin...

Well hello there. Its been a while. Sorry. I mean I know no one really reads this thing. Its pretty much for my own sanity I suppose but whatever.

So I got sucked into the Twilight series. While its write for the 12 -16 year old girls the book blew my mind. Not because it was like a fantastic work or anything but... the characters of Edward and Bella are so. I don't know. I mean I couldn't relate to them really. But I found my self longing for the cnnection they had. It was strong and I donno. Very true, real, and honest. So amazing. Something that you Should want. :) Everyone is sooo absorbed in these books and I can clearly see why. I found my self HAVING to read the books ,wanting to, if I wasnt I was left feeling...kind of empty? Its was...wierd.. But the books provide an escape. A little fantasy world. Something i needed. Something I haven't had in a long time...A way out of the world and all its pain and sorrow, all of the stress and frustartion. I got so into them. After finishing Twilight I immediatly went out and got the sequle New Moon. I finished it cover to cover 18 hours I read with out stopping. I had to know. I'm buying the 3rd Eclipse tomorrow. 3 days since I read of Edward and Bella...I'm gong insane. I found my self pulling for the couple to make it through. At the same time I sort of fell for Edward..(as much as you can for a fictional character). He the type of guy you would kill to have. Perfect gentleman, honest, mysterious, alittle dangersous(ok ok I know MORE than a little), protective, and all around loving. The I'm breaking the rules to be with her because I love her that much type...

Things keep getting better and better. Like seriously everyday! I am so so so happy! I donno what has really changed?! Its great though. Like a few weeks ago I seriously was like "I hate everything." Which is a lousy way to be! Don't be like that. You'll be miserable!

Things are getting back on track attitude and mind set wise. Which is helping everything else fall back into place! You attitude has a lot to do with the people around you and what you're getting out of life. I think that negativity shuts a lot of doors that should always be open....like.. Friends and friendship. People don't wan to be around a sour puss. Or how about your job? If you're negative people can feel it and see it and if you work in retail ya know your sales drop, hours drop, paychecks be come lousy, and co workers won't talk to you. Or how about FAMILY. The people who love you most. You negative attitude will shut them out when you probably need them MOST. Going through a tough time be positive. It changes everything. I knwo its hard to be positive when being tested, but it is a TEST!

God wants to see you pull throug be strom and praise him through anything. Negativity and shutting people out it is just the opposite. He doesn't fix everything for you. Sometimes he wants you to do it yourself. NOT ALONE. But for yourself. Its the ulimate praise to you LORD and Savior. Pulling through a tough time and to still love your God and to still give glory to Him and to show His love and to still have a passion for life.

PRAISE GOD THROUGH ANY AND EVERY STORM


I was sure by now,
God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands
and praise the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands for
You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone
how can I carry on if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls I raise my hands
and praise the God who gives
and takes away

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth

Obama

I am NOT thrilled with the election of Obama.
But what I am even more upset about is the number of people who say I don't like it b/c he is black. Let me just tell you. I do not have a care in the world what color our President is. That is the LAST thing in this world that I care about. I am not racist or prejudice against race of any sort. I am a very accepting person. So you can get that mess out of your head.

Now. I do not think Obama should be president YET! I think that he is not prepared for the responsibility of making choices for a nation. I do not think he is ready to take the responsibilty of the nation. I think that in a few more years he would make a wonderful president. However, I do feel that if the roles were reversed and it was Biden/ Obama. I think it would be a wonderful mix. I think Obama should give it a trial run as VP. Biden is soo much smarter in Forigen Policy than I think Obama is. I don't think he's gonna be good for the Economy either. I just don't think he is someone I can trust with a whole nation.

It is not because he's black. It not b/c the circulating rumor that he is the anti christ, it not b/c his middle name is Hussin. Its because I simply do not feel he is prepared for such a huge responsibility.

I get sooo tired of coming to this house. It isn't home and it never was. Because he likes to push me away. Push me out, make me hate everything. I've got to get out of here..asap.

Christmas in November!?

SO! I ended up working this morning! Which was fantastic! [: Seeing as how I definitely needed the hours! Anyways, so I'm working quite diligently on the placemats in the OH SO LOVELY Pier One and I on NOVEMBER 1, (the day after halloween) Find my self tapping along to what!?


CHRISTMAS MUSIC!!!!!!!!!

That's right. Pier One is already play Christmas music....

Don't get me wrong I am the perfecr example of a Christmas FREAK, but...it's November 1st...We still have THANKSGIVING. [:

Peace out,
Ash.